Today I have ACC 3606 exam. I feel I would either fail or get D, or the get C perhaps..
Even if I get C, though I would still thankful, but I will still sad
Luckily, it's the last paper so I don't need to study for other modules. I think my mind and soul is not together at this point of time
I would say it probably the worst paper I do. I totally screwed up with this.
The first exam I really cried after exam that I couldn't stop
Even I'm writing here with my trembling hand
I called my mom n my friends couldn't stop my tears
I felt bad that I made my mom sad for me. Luckily I have parent that blame me or demand me for good score. But still, I feel very sorry to myself and to my parent
For those I called, perhaps u could understand how I felt and how bad exactly I did for my paper.
I think I should apply and look for job before my this semester cap come out. I think I should erase those going to take honours thinking. I haven't apply any job though....
I think I should apply and look for job before my this semester cap come out. I think I should erase those going to take honours thinking. I haven't apply any job though....
It was a 4 hours and 15minutes paper.But it's totally not enough for me...
I couldn't finish my exam, even the part I did also not completely right. Though I never leave my paper blank for each questions but I could roughly know, some subsection i would get zero mark. I even could say 1 question 20marks I totally messed up. I could firmly feel I would lose at least 30mark out of 100 for sure. The unsure part is much more....
Come out from exam, I heard some people also didn't finish the question, though it's kindda comfort me abit, but i guess I won't be better than them. Well, of course there are smart people that can finish or do well, hmmm..I don't think people are doing badly..that mk me feel more miserable...
After this exam, I feel like not doing anything, I actually have lots things to do bfr going back to my hometown tomorrow for my CCA etc. Now I don't feel doing anything, even watching drama or going for shopping as I planned after exam, I couldn't do or enjoy it. I feel my mind and my soul and my brain is now not interconnected.
I could only pray
I could only wish for miracle
I still hope my other modules can help me
2 comments:
There are things in life that doesn't turn out as what we want it to be. We seem to be powerless and nothing we can do about it. However, you are never alone in living your life. There's God who ultimately govern our life, u can turn to Him for every single problem, no matter how small it is to the biggest problem you ever had in my life.
This is what I want you to think though.. You have done what you can and although it is very hard to let go and let God do the rest, it does help. Trust Him completely.
And as a negative thinking person, I always think about the worse thing that would happen, so pardon me if this makes you sad, but thinking about the worst case always help me to be stronger. So what if you fail the module? Your world is not gonna ruin right? You fail it, yes, it pull down your CAP and everything, but does CAP dictate who you really are? It will hinder you in finding your job, it's inevitable, but so what? You just gotta learn to do harder than everybody else. It's as if you fall down once, cry as much as you like, but you gotta realize that life goes on and there are better things waiting for you out there if you pull yourself up and try harder. Afterall, we fell thousands of time before we can walk right? And are you going to let this thing ruin your holiday? Accept it and let go...
I say all this based on my own experience fenn.. Judging from your state, mine is even worse. I am only sure 1/4 of it and you know other people are like saying it's easy and all that.. and even worse, I know I haven't done my best. So I really regret that.. But really, you just have to talk it out, scream, or whatever you like to do, make yourself feel better and enjoy your holiday. =)
And I believe Mike also says that it isn't that easy to fail a module in NUS. I think it's true. =)
I also believe despite being a very sensitive person, you are a strong girl fennita. And again, your life doesn't depend on your grades.
P.S. you can always talk to me if you feel like it!
Thanks alot Chris...
I'm fine now..THough yeah...prepare for the worst... I do believe Gof is always there to help us
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