Sweet Home and Melody

Apparently, it makes my mood really bad. No mood to study. No mood to do anything.
Not only my interview thing, but other thing seems went wrong.
I really don't think enjoying what I'm doing now. Somehow feel rather a burden and responsibility.
I think I should learn to admit mistakes, admit what I did was wrong, admit the reality, admit the environmental restriction and rules, try to get use of it.
But I do want to clarify if not fully my mistake though. is it wrong?
I just somehow feel sad though. knowing the reality that did it was not some stranger.

God please help me to learn to admit my mistake
learn from past experience
learn not to take anything so seriously and get my self so down
learn to not so easy to be sad due to small thing
learn to not so sensitive
Tell me what should i do...

I have just taken a nap from 1030am-1600pm. OMG. Inspite of not yet study for my upcoming midterm and not yet done my tomorrow's compulsory tutorial. What's wrong with me. I didn't sleep too late ytd though.
I feel I have TIME CONSTRAINT!

My family came to Singapore for 6 days 5 nights from 14-19 Sep 2010. They stayed in Ibis Hotel, Bugis for 2 days. They only booked for 2 days coz they planned to go to Genting Malaysia for the other three days. Too bad we cancelled the plan coz it was hari Raya and the hotels in Genting were fully booked and we felt it's too rush. We couldn't extend the stay in Ibis since it's fully booked.

Then, we stayed in NUS Visitor Lodge. It's nice as family hotel and worthy. In the period they stayed in Singapore, we went to Botanical Garden (the orchid garden was nice), Universal Studio, Marina Sands Casino (too bad me and my brother were staying outside coz still under age), Orchad, Bugis, lastly visited our relatives and ate.haha. I'm enjoying the time spent with them and no study at all,
and I just realize that Singapore is a good city for tourist..hwahhaha...

Stayed together for 5 days, it's bit sad when they went back to Jakarta today


At NUS Visitor Lodge














At Orchid Garden - Botanical Garden















At Marina Sands





































At Ibis Hotel

I feel seriously tired
I feel burdened
I couldn't have more fun and enjoy with everything
In some point I do really want to leave everything
Could I just leave irresponsibly
Could I just say no to everything
Could I be selfish for some point of time
This point of time I can only drop my tears and write
on here coz noone I really can talk to

The super tiring 48 hours we put effort for case competition semi final

IT APPEARS TO BE FAIL.........(i wrote this before I know the result but we just felt we couldn't make it to the final)
feel sad
feel unfortunate
feel want to repeat if possible

I just felt regret coz I didn't present well
I suddenly blur even the company's name we discussed in the case
really much worse then the worst I have had before I suppose
I suppose it's also the effect of not sleeping the day before
though could also be no enough preparation since we lacked of time

I felt sorry to my self, I felt sorry to my team mate
Although not a fatal mistake, but still,
I felt embarrassed
I won't never present without enough preparation
I really have no more power to properly breath now
Time to sleep
Time to forget everything
Time to keep it as a unforgettable memory
I hope time can be back!!!!

Anyway, I really got an great experience, learnt alot, enjoyed the time with my team mate. Staying over together for consecutive 2 days was really impressive.